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Friday, May 16, 2008
❤ I fake a smile in front of my friends in school to hide my tears. But I just relised that faking a smile is actually very difficult . Everyone around me is changing one by one. Whyye can't everyone just be like the last time? Whyee are all of them changing till I don't even know who are they! Dear dear; Marcus Seah, Sergio, Zone, Ben, all of them are changing! They've changed till like, no, I don't know them. Althought Dear, Sergio & Zone are the ones that I love the most, I just don't seems to know them at all . I just want all of them to be like the last time, issit so difficult for this wish or whatsoever to come true ? I've missed you like I didn't seen you for years, but all you care is about your games. Do you even freaking know how I feel like you ignored me ? I can't accept all this. Things are changing really fast, I can't cope & accept the fact . How I wish I could turn back the time, & nothing like that will happen . Stayed back after school today again . With Sheng Fatt for the STAR SHINE SHINE SHINE! :D Did like 400 plus stars today. - yawns - Freaking tiring & bored lurr . Sheila went to meet __ at about 1 plus. Got to company her out of school. -.- Was folding my stars when waiting for __ actually. Went back straight away after seeing him. Didn't really want to stay long cos I'm seriously not interested in all those. ((: Saw Adrian Kor when I got back to school. He dragged me to the canteen for the prefect meeting. Was actually getting out pizzas for the competition that we have earlier on. Was dragged by Adrian out of school again to find Sheila. -.- Saw Sheila & __ after that . Was caught when we saw them. But who cares ? Urhh urhh . Sheila messaged me stuff & stuff after that. Too lazy to reply & got SF to reply her. whatever .. I don't really give a damn. Ate pizza & fold stars with a few prefects. (: Was forcing some of the dancers to take the pizza(s) in fact. :D Threaten Amirah to eat the pizza if not SF & I will cut ourself again. She got scared & she took it. Hehe, I know I'm evil. :D Sheila freaking kick my back bone when she came back. Freak lurr, hurts so much. Fold fold fold the stars. Was about 2 plus at that time. Watched the guides training & some other unifroms group when folding stars. Looking at the NCC training, it reminds me of dear dear again. The time when we met & he was wearing his NCC uniform. He look really green. I miss him a lot. ): Fold & fold & fold. I can't seems to get my butt stick on the floor for a long time. Got restless & started jumping around. :D Fold stars till we don't have a single paper left. Was helping out actually so I didn't managed to go early. Counting stars & folding stars, packing stars & putting them in the star box, getting real restless & SF suggested to play musical chair. Freaking lame lur. I didn't play in the end. Throwed containers in netball shooting poles. Obviously not even one got in cos there's wind & stuff. Wanted to borrow netball to play but was not allowed. Went home at 6 plus with Sheila & SF, bla bla bla. I just reliesed that I'm closer to my GM then Mother. I love my GM more than my mother. Talking to her, there's no stress at all. They way she concerned me is more than my mum. Everything she did, I really love it. ilovemygrandmotherseriously. Ps : I was 'emo' in class today & written some stupid thoughts in class. Sheila read it & cheered me up & stuff. I really hope everything will be like the last time. I need your love, seriously. I wanna freaking those people who invented games upside down. I just don't understand why guys like to play computer games that much. Especially dota which I think that isn't fun at all. RAWR & YAWNS. I hate life! |
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